I really thought I would be relieved when we finally started making plans to take Mom back to Minnesota. But, I am fighting with sadness, anger, anxioty. I have started using the delay tactics that got me through those first weeks. When I feel like I want to cry, I tell myself "not now, later". Later doesn't come. I'm tired again. I drag through my routine. I try to draw and my mind wanders. I can't get that sence of escape that I first enjoyed when I started drawing.
I started reading a book. It is light reading. It doesn't take much of a commitment. That seems to be my distraction for now. We talk about our plans for next weekend. Our trip is right in the middle of Myron's birtday and our anniversary. Happy events to celebrate.
a journal about keeping the memories of my mother who suffers with Lewy Body Dementia
On November 13, 2010 I gladly became the primary caregiver of my mother. She has Lewy Body Dementia, the second most common memory loss condition after Alzhiemers. I knew nothing about Lewy Body Dementia until I brought Mom to Indiana to live with me. My mother is a resident at the Waters of Covington, a rehabilitation center near our home. I would like to have her live with us but her care is more then one person can provide. The staff at the Waters fell in love with Mom immediately. She may be losing her memory and her ability to care for herself but she hasn't lost her sense of humor or her gentle grace. This blog is meant to be a journal of our days together.
On May 15, 2011 My Mother peacefully and fearlessly passed into the here after. Now I journey alone, yet not alone. I have a lifetime of memories.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Trip to Minnesota
I just made hotel reservations for three days in Minnesota. We are finally taking Mom home. I have such mixed feelings. I have saved and saved to have what we need to go and now that I am actually making solid plans I am so sad. It is like taking this step has opened all the grieving that I have pushed aside all these months. Twice I have had to use my savings for living expenses. Each time I have told myself that I had to take care of the living first. Now, we are GOING before anything else can happen.
I got reservations at a nice hotel in Cambridge. They have a bereavement package. Now I have to rent a car. Our car will not make that kind of trip. Then it is just timing.
I got reservations at a nice hotel in Cambridge. They have a bereavement package. Now I have to rent a car. Our car will not make that kind of trip. Then it is just timing.
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